So my TWO WEEKS midsem/easter break had ended...and i have managed to accomplish almost everything that was listed in my holiday to-do list in the previous post =) all but organizing "the justice league" and *cough* studying *cough*...hehehe....
anyway, its fair to say that the holidays was quite eventful the way i see it, eventhough i would find trouble explaining just what exactly did i do...but in short: the holidays have been very kind to me...i had a great time doing whatever i was doing...and i was happy being with whoever that was there...
so today i am officially 22 years and 1 week old...last tuesday, 17th april, was my birthday =)
i would like to say gazillions of thank you's to all who made this lil birthday of mine special..the bday wishes and all...nothing is too little a gesture for me -> they all mean a lot to me...
i reserve special dedication to Dato Edward, Kristina, Azan, n Devan for the surprise on Tuesday night...story goes: that night i juz wanted to chill at devan's place coz havent been there for awhile (since his mom was around)...and on that day his mom left, tot that me n azan can chill there for dinner like normal...we could not do take away as we wanted to, hence we decided to cook...
i was lepaking in devan's computer room when suddenly i saw kristina outside...i went...errr...hi...errr...how come you are here? then i saw edward...and then it became clear -D'OH~! SURPRISE SUNNY! hahaha... so we had dinner, and played some poker, and then ate my bday chocolate ice cream cake...daym...it was a great night...thank you edward n kristina for making the journey up to macquarie all the way from the city! seriusly terharu beb...thanks all....(oh ya, azan n devan...you cheeky cheeky busy bees =P )
also special dedication to Nisa, Syada, Ana, n Durra for the bbq + nasi ayam + my 2nd bday cake that you ppl kindly made for me on friday =) usually i cant tell if food is good or not (maafkan tastebuds ku), but that night im pretty sure ive had a really good dinner and ate a really nice cake...saya amat berterima kasih kepada saudari sekalian kerana dengan baik hatinya menjemput saya utk menyambut hari jadi saya =) it was probably your kindness that made the food taste all the better, and the moment all the special.
finally, my special dedication to Zek, Anas, Arif, May, Hawa, Sheera, n Fini for the chill-out poker night and surprise on saturday. Zek insisted that we chill out on saturday night to celebrate my bday...and since i had no plans...why not, kan? So that night we were juz chilling, had delicious dinner prepared by may n hawa...then played rounds of poker...lepaking n joking around...
around midnite fini n sheera arrived after coming back from beyonce's concert...by that time, poker was already show down between me n zek...a few moments after that, arif turned off the lights and i tot probably they wanted to snap cool poker duel pictures of me n zek with lights off...so i was focused on the game - when they started singing happy birthday and i turned around and saw a brightly lit bday cake~! it was so sweet ... and i would have to go for sniffing test coz i didnt even smell the candles being lit behind me~!
and yes of coz, super duper timakasih cik gg for your hand in plotting the 3rd cake with zek...nakal ye? =P dari jauh pun nak surprise2 ye? hehehehehehehe...tunggu laa =P
again, thank you all...kam siah (hokkien thank you), xie xie =)
before i leave, i would like to make something clear here...
some friends ask me why i never organized anything to celebrate my bday and invite them, like a dinner or something...thing is, i dont really know why, but i am juz not the type of person that would organize things to celebrate my own birthday, nor would i kecoh2 about it...like, who am i to mafan you all, 'asking' you all to wish/celebrate my bday? i like celebrating others' bdays by planning surprises n all, but im contented enough celebrating my bday by juz chilling like any normal day...to me, getting simple bday wishes would already be enough to make my day simply coz i know i have people out there who remembers and cares...
so...yeah, i am now older, and i hope i would grow to be more wiser...few weeks ago i said all i wanted was to still be in sydney come this time...and im still here, still breathing the sweet air, still living the good life...i can't thank you enough, Allah, for all the blessings you have given me up to this moment...
p/s - tq alan lau ma man for calling alllll the way from KL! u friggin cool man~! hahaha =P
Monday, April 23, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
things i do when i'm angry
Tasha tagged me for this...and i think its quite interesting, because from high school years till now, my temperament had changed dramatically and hence my ways of dealing with anger.
I used to be very very bad tempered/hot headed. Right now, i've probably mellowed. Old age? hahaha...i call it 'getting matured'. So, here goes....things i do when i'm angry:
1. Shout.
i shout (more in the past) when im angry on certain occasions, and sometimes, the shouting would also include swearing. a recent example: a UTS player needlessly slide-tackled and injured one of my soccer teammates during sports carnival few days ago. they were 3-0 up, and it was a stupid+unnecessary challenge. i was mad coz i know how it feels to suffer such heavy injury like a broken bone, and i made sure that UTS player knew my feelings after the match by shouting at him and his whole team.
i felt bad after that for shouting, went to the whole UTS team, and apologized for my outburst, particularly to that guy - but i made a point that the message i was getting across stands.
2. Walk off or Send off
this is something i do when my anger is related to dissapointment. i would be still for a moment absorbing whatever that is happening around me, and walk off the scene to solitary to further calm myself and re-evaluate everything. i would return to the scene to confront matters, usually more composed and with an apology.
or, i would send off the person who made me angry, probably by asking him/her to do something else away from the scene or just take a break, so that i can cool down, then probably recall the person back when we both are ready to get over it all and move forward. sometimes there would be a verbal apology, but sometimes, apologies come in the form of actions and need not be spoken.
3. Be Funny, with or without sarcasm attached (usually with)
this comes in situation when somehow i could instantly get composed and find some witty remarks about the situation. usually the type of anger associated is not terribly serious.
in a stressful situation, an effective joke could almost immediately change everyone's gear to a more calm and constructive level, instead of staying full of emotions and anger. it's not easy to be funny when angry, but more often than before, ive been able to do it.
when sarcasm is being attached, it usually is aimed at a target that's not present, or source of anger that's elsewhere. this is simply because sarcasm can easily make the joke back-fire and trigger bigger flares of tension.
4. Slam my keyboard/desk + clinch my fist.
so far, no keyboards/desks had been broken, no fists were really thrown at anyone/thing but air. usually this method is used when dealing with computer-related anger. for example, when i play PES and have 15 shots on target but no goals, or a crashing computer (which has the most perfect timing).
sometimes its funny when i think back, coz sometimes, why i played the game in the first place is to relieve my tension - but turned out to have made me more angry. lucky, at least the anger is channeled elsewhere.
tip: buy a 15 dollar pariah keyboard with hard keys - they are as effective as the fancy-mancy ones, but are much much more durable, and they cost less if destined to be destroyed by anger-driven mighty you.
5. keep mum + long breaths + silent istighfars
sometimes when angered, i would just shut up and keep silent, taking long and deep breaths, and saying silent istighfars. i do this to reset my mind to identify clearly, and face the real issue more constructively. this too is something ive learnt in recent years and pretty much is how i deal with anger usually nowadays. definitely is not what i would usually do back in the old days.
over the years, i found out (the hard way) that when anyone speaks or speaks too much when are angry, feelings will be hurt and problems would get worst. why? coz an anger driven person tend to lose grip of the situation, lose hold to rationality, and simply lose it all.
i've hurt some friends before with my big mouth, sometimes these are the ones who really mean a lot to me. i've been lucky to have been forgiven many times, but i realise second chances don't come all the time, and that's why i make it a point to learn to calm down. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur; terlajak kata, binasa.
6. Going to the basketball court, shooting long shots + slamming the board with the ball - hard
this is a classic. i do this once in awhile, more often in the past when i was in mrsm and have easy access to a ball court. i used to go to the court between subuh prayers and breakfast to cool myself down in the chilly and serene environment, while just throwing the ball. i know my temper had gone down when ive started doing lay-ups. this is my version of a physical approach to anger management, and it has never failed me.
I used to be very very bad tempered/hot headed. Right now, i've probably mellowed. Old age? hahaha...i call it 'getting matured'. So, here goes....things i do when i'm angry:
1. Shout.
i shout (more in the past) when im angry on certain occasions, and sometimes, the shouting would also include swearing. a recent example: a UTS player needlessly slide-tackled and injured one of my soccer teammates during sports carnival few days ago. they were 3-0 up, and it was a stupid+unnecessary challenge. i was mad coz i know how it feels to suffer such heavy injury like a broken bone, and i made sure that UTS player knew my feelings after the match by shouting at him and his whole team.
i felt bad after that for shouting, went to the whole UTS team, and apologized for my outburst, particularly to that guy - but i made a point that the message i was getting across stands.
2. Walk off or Send off
this is something i do when my anger is related to dissapointment. i would be still for a moment absorbing whatever that is happening around me, and walk off the scene to solitary to further calm myself and re-evaluate everything. i would return to the scene to confront matters, usually more composed and with an apology.
or, i would send off the person who made me angry, probably by asking him/her to do something else away from the scene or just take a break, so that i can cool down, then probably recall the person back when we both are ready to get over it all and move forward. sometimes there would be a verbal apology, but sometimes, apologies come in the form of actions and need not be spoken.
3. Be Funny, with or without sarcasm attached (usually with)
this comes in situation when somehow i could instantly get composed and find some witty remarks about the situation. usually the type of anger associated is not terribly serious.
in a stressful situation, an effective joke could almost immediately change everyone's gear to a more calm and constructive level, instead of staying full of emotions and anger. it's not easy to be funny when angry, but more often than before, ive been able to do it.
when sarcasm is being attached, it usually is aimed at a target that's not present, or source of anger that's elsewhere. this is simply because sarcasm can easily make the joke back-fire and trigger bigger flares of tension.
4. Slam my keyboard/desk + clinch my fist.
so far, no keyboards/desks had been broken, no fists were really thrown at anyone/thing but air. usually this method is used when dealing with computer-related anger. for example, when i play PES and have 15 shots on target but no goals, or a crashing computer (which has the most perfect timing).
sometimes its funny when i think back, coz sometimes, why i played the game in the first place is to relieve my tension - but turned out to have made me more angry. lucky, at least the anger is channeled elsewhere.
tip: buy a 15 dollar pariah keyboard with hard keys - they are as effective as the fancy-mancy ones, but are much much more durable, and they cost less if destined to be destroyed by anger-driven mighty you.
5. keep mum + long breaths + silent istighfars
sometimes when angered, i would just shut up and keep silent, taking long and deep breaths, and saying silent istighfars. i do this to reset my mind to identify clearly, and face the real issue more constructively. this too is something ive learnt in recent years and pretty much is how i deal with anger usually nowadays. definitely is not what i would usually do back in the old days.
over the years, i found out (the hard way) that when anyone speaks or speaks too much when are angry, feelings will be hurt and problems would get worst. why? coz an anger driven person tend to lose grip of the situation, lose hold to rationality, and simply lose it all.
i've hurt some friends before with my big mouth, sometimes these are the ones who really mean a lot to me. i've been lucky to have been forgiven many times, but i realise second chances don't come all the time, and that's why i make it a point to learn to calm down. Terlajak perahu boleh diundur; terlajak kata, binasa.
6. Going to the basketball court, shooting long shots + slamming the board with the ball - hard
this is a classic. i do this once in awhile, more often in the past when i was in mrsm and have easy access to a ball court. i used to go to the court between subuh prayers and breakfast to cool myself down in the chilly and serene environment, while just throwing the ball. i know my temper had gone down when ive started doing lay-ups. this is my version of a physical approach to anger management, and it has never failed me.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
cuti sudah bermula...
yeahaaa.....laptop aku skarang dah virgin semula!!! baru reformat daaa~
dan....
dan....
yeahaaa~!!cuti dah start~!! and since aku kat macquarie uni, 2 kali yeahaaa la dari dak2 uni lain sbb cuti budak2 macquarie ni 2 minggu lamanye =P
[bertukar ke nada formal]
di sini saya senaraikan (tanpa mengikut susunan prioriti) beberapa perkara yang ingin saya lakukan di masa cuti ini:
(oleh kerana saya bukan pelajar TESL, maka saya tak akan melayan kawan saya dari NZ/Brisbane...haha...maaf ya, ini adalah stereotaip yang nyata bagi pelajar TESL setiap musim cuti...haha)
--lepak di city, mengeratkan silaturrahim bersama sahabat handai yang sudah lama tak ketemu
--berkaraoke + menyanyikan lagu2 wajib karaoke
--menonton persembahan dramac yang sekian lama tertangguh (maaf nisa!)
--menghadiri majlis graduasi rakan2 saya di macquarie dan di mana-mana jua uni di sydney
--menyertai 'inter uni sports carnival' sebagai pemain dan penyokong...ya, 4 tahun, masih bersemangat!
--*uhuk* belajar *uhuk*
--bermain bola keranjang
--menganjurkan kejohanan playstation 2 'pro evolution soccer' yang juga dikenali sebagai 'Justice League'
--menghubungi semula rakan2 lama di mana jua yang sudah lama tiada khabar/berhubungan.
--memulangkan tupperware tasha =P
saya rasa itulah dia agenda-agenda utama cuti ini...ingin maklumat lanjut? hubungi saya di sini dan sana...sekian =)
p/s-azan, have fun reading...this to practice your malay yo!
p-p/s - Gullible Info: "On any given day, there is a 94 percent chance that you will walk past someone with the same birthday as you."
Monday, April 02, 2007
check these out
This is the origina scene from Top Gun:
and this i found on youtube:
hahaha...i would so wanna try that stunt...hahaha....(not propose lah, but, u know...pick-up)...ooops....someone's angry!
hahaha....
and this i found on youtube:
hahaha...i would so wanna try that stunt...hahaha....(not propose lah, but, u know...pick-up)...ooops....someone's angry!
hahaha....
Monday, March 26, 2007
weeeiirrrdddd sheeeeeeetttt maaannnnn~
halo boys and girls...
miss fatin tagged me, and i have to list down 6 weird things about me...so here goes...
Enam Perkara Pelik Mengenai Sunny!!
1- I generalize a lot. Most of times, I don't really bother much about the categorization...for example...people can have this coffee that coffee, this tea that tea...heck...they all coffee or tea to me...I think its lebey la all the types or whatever (and this relates to point number 2)...and vegetables...all of the same colour are the same (and i used to work in a salad bar..wtfbbq)...
2- My tastebuds are replication of my generalization nature. ie, they dont really work. I can't tell if the food tastes good or not...to me there are 3 categories...VERY BAD...VERY GOOD...and everything else falls in between...so...most of the time i am happy with whatever presented to me...
e.g...pizza...well, throw me any pizza, they all are ok and taste good...sometimes my friends say the food (e.g. nasi lemak) at restaurant X is good, Y is bad...blabla...but they all taste the same ok maa...so, i'm not too awed when i hear some place have really good food...coz it all tastes good to me (very rare to find very bad or very good)...ambience and company is what matters =)
3- I play Pro Evolution Soccer's (the football game on my laptop) managerial mode from year 2006 - 2028 (and counting).To those who understand the nature of the game, you might go "WTFBBQ"...but here's to those who dont...
managerial mode requires you to play a team in a full season...which is about 40 to 50 games all together per season...then do negotiations/buy-sell players, and move to the next year...and so on and so on...
now, a game is approx 20 minutes...i have played (since last year) 22 seasons (season 2006 - season 2028 currently)...22 x 45 is how many games...and to think ive lasted 22 years using only 1 team (MAN UTD ROCKS!)...and not get bored...hehehe...i dont know many players who play the way i do...
4- I love to page myself at shopping centres in malaysia. you know, those paging calls that go like "paging for mr xxx, paging for mr xxx, please come to the info counter blablabla"
its a fav past-time of mine when i hang out with friends back in the school days...we all would go to the info counter, and with full composure, i would ask for the info ppl to page my name...and then pretend to wait...then lose patience...and say thanks and chow...
its super fun ok...and its a good practice to help maintain composure in any situation...and i guess thats where i practice my bluffing skills (those who know me knows bluffing is my talent) =P
5- I love to give anologies..but azan says the weird shit is that I love to give statistical anologies...or i love to explain things in a statistical perspective...
like, a situation can be a statistical model...which has a distribution...with parameters...and behavior is defined by the distribution....for example...my sleep time is a normally distributed random variable, with mean 12 midnight and standard deviation 1 hour...
i dont know why...maybe i am just practising what i learn...maybe i am a stats freak (but i suck in stats alrite)...ah well...azan sez its weird, hence, this is on my list...
6 - cik gg sez i drink vigorously...err...i only realized it today...as i was voice-chatting online...and tried to quietly drink something...then she said "minum ekk??" ... then she explained that she had always noticed that i drink rather vigorously, much like what im drinking is not liquid, but solid...then i tried drinking slowly...but still the sound...
she said i make very loud sound when the drink goes down my esophagus...like 'kruk krak'...or something like that...ah welll...she sez its weird...at least i dont touch my food to my chin before putting them into my mouth (robert from everybody loves raymond)...
ahhh...so i guess those are the 6 weird things about me...i have no idea if they really are weird...but...what the heck =P
I tag: Zek, Gedik Queens, Faisal, Dirah....and Azan (this is better than answering helicopter questions yo!)...
miss fatin tagged me, and i have to list down 6 weird things about me...so here goes...
Enam Perkara Pelik Mengenai Sunny!!
1- I generalize a lot. Most of times, I don't really bother much about the categorization...for example...people can have this coffee that coffee, this tea that tea...heck...they all coffee or tea to me...I think its lebey la all the types or whatever (and this relates to point number 2)...and vegetables...all of the same colour are the same (and i used to work in a salad bar..wtfbbq)...
2- My tastebuds are replication of my generalization nature. ie, they dont really work. I can't tell if the food tastes good or not...to me there are 3 categories...VERY BAD...VERY GOOD...and everything else falls in between...so...most of the time i am happy with whatever presented to me...
e.g...pizza...well, throw me any pizza, they all are ok and taste good...sometimes my friends say the food (e.g. nasi lemak) at restaurant X is good, Y is bad...blabla...but they all taste the same ok maa...so, i'm not too awed when i hear some place have really good food...coz it all tastes good to me (very rare to find very bad or very good)...ambience and company is what matters =)
3- I play Pro Evolution Soccer's (the football game on my laptop) managerial mode from year 2006 - 2028 (and counting).To those who understand the nature of the game, you might go "WTFBBQ"...but here's to those who dont...
managerial mode requires you to play a team in a full season...which is about 40 to 50 games all together per season...then do negotiations/buy-sell players, and move to the next year...and so on and so on...
now, a game is approx 20 minutes...i have played (since last year) 22 seasons (season 2006 - season 2028 currently)...22 x 45 is how many games...and to think ive lasted 22 years using only 1 team (MAN UTD ROCKS!)...and not get bored...hehehe...i dont know many players who play the way i do...
4- I love to page myself at shopping centres in malaysia. you know, those paging calls that go like "paging for mr xxx, paging for mr xxx, please come to the info counter blablabla"
its a fav past-time of mine when i hang out with friends back in the school days...we all would go to the info counter, and with full composure, i would ask for the info ppl to page my name...and then pretend to wait...then lose patience...and say thanks and chow...
its super fun ok...and its a good practice to help maintain composure in any situation...and i guess thats where i practice my bluffing skills (those who know me knows bluffing is my talent) =P
5- I love to give anologies..but azan says the weird shit is that I love to give statistical anologies...or i love to explain things in a statistical perspective...
like, a situation can be a statistical model...which has a distribution...with parameters...and behavior is defined by the distribution....for example...my sleep time is a normally distributed random variable, with mean 12 midnight and standard deviation 1 hour...
i dont know why...maybe i am just practising what i learn...maybe i am a stats freak (but i suck in stats alrite)...ah well...azan sez its weird, hence, this is on my list...
6 - cik gg sez i drink vigorously...err...i only realized it today...as i was voice-chatting online...and tried to quietly drink something...then she said "minum ekk??" ... then she explained that she had always noticed that i drink rather vigorously, much like what im drinking is not liquid, but solid...then i tried drinking slowly...but still the sound...
she said i make very loud sound when the drink goes down my esophagus...like 'kruk krak'...or something like that...ah welll...she sez its weird...at least i dont touch my food to my chin before putting them into my mouth (robert from everybody loves raymond)...
ahhh...so i guess those are the 6 weird things about me...i have no idea if they really are weird...but...what the heck =P
I tag: Zek, Gedik Queens, Faisal, Dirah....and Azan (this is better than answering helicopter questions yo!)...
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