To my country,
On your 50th year of independence, i just want to tell you i love u very much.
Some people hate you, some people selectively see and say only bad things about you, some people dont care - i am not them.
All the best in becoming a stronger, more prosperous, and more peaceful country. My prayers are with you...amin...
Sunny
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The Poker Game of Relationships
I am damn bored...my internet is super slow, cant do shit with it really...blardy housemates who dwld like wan kind....im out of my house half of the time each week...which means IT WASNT ME!
Anyway...a few days ago, while walking, stressed, i thought of this theory for relationship, an anology for it... If you read on, you might even learn how to play poker (well, the basics at least) ~!
Firstly, in short, a poker game starts off with each player being dealt a pair of cards. if played till the end, each player uses his/her pair of cards combined with 5 other 'communal' cards, ie cards that are shared with other players too (making a pool of 7 cards) and determine the highest ordered combination of 5 cards (flush, full house, etc) they each have. players compare their combination, and player with best combination wins the round.
When the pair of card is being dealt, each player will assess the possibilities or strengths of the pair. if they think the pair is worth going on, or they just feel like it, the player will place a bet to join the game. else, he will 'fold' (meaning: cabut lari...pass the round).
Once who's in and who's out is confirmed, the dealer will unveil the first 3 communal cards. so now, each player combines their unique pair with the 3 cards to see how things go. is there hope for a good combination at the end? is it worth going on? indeed, with 3 new cards, the picture is clearer - these 3 cards now draw a dottted line separating hope and chance, dream and reality ... what might have been and what would be...
So, if the situation looks good, the player will continue, placing bets if necessary, taking risks. if situation is shit, hopes that came with the initial pare shattered with the 3 communal cards unveiled, the player will fold and not waste more resources chasing a lost cause.
the 4th communal card is then unveiled. players assess their position again. how are the chances? do i have 'something'? indeed, now with 6 cards in the picture, it should be pretty clear what the situation would be after 7 cards. again the process of deliberation - whether to take the gamble on the 7th card, whether to carry on, whether this bluff is worth it, whether this dream is now too costly....
again, a player may continue or fold. once the bettings are done, the 5th and final communal card is shown. now the picture is almost perfectly clear. almost, because you can only now know your best combination. win or lose, it still depends what your oppenents have. that, you can only guess. you still dont know, you will never know unless you go on with the final bettings, gambling what you have, taking more risks, to join the group of last persons standing.
now, at this stage, something interesting occurs to the mind. the player have already gone so far in the game. a lot have already been risked. folding means those resources put in is gone. the more you are in, the harder it is to get out. many would just go on because of this, some would still have the discipline to think losing X doesnt mean i have to lose more by going on...
then after those staying on have finished betting, all cards are unveiled. the winner is determined.
relationships are like poker games. you get into one with limited knowledge, there is only so much one can know about another without being in a relationship. you can hope, you can guess, you can extrapolate....you get into one....you risk time, effort, you feelings...you get into a poker game by just seeing 2 of 7 cards...
the more you get into a relationship, the more you know, the more is unveiled. your mind constantly reassess your position subconciously. is it as worth it as it initially looked? should more of everything be put into the relationship? indeed, the more u know, the more u know where 'your cards' are going...the more you know whether you should continue betting or fold...
but wait, knowing 'your cards' is just part of the game...what the other players have will determine whether u win or not. indeed, there is a huge part in relationship that's just a big black box. and so while you can get out of a game with knowledge of what you have, you can stay in with 2 ways - betting on what you have, or betting on what others have.
isn't that the case with relationships? you can leave because you are not happy. but you can either stay because you are happy or because you are not unhappy enough, you bet on 'the other player' - fate.
of course, in poker you can bluff. you can go on with nothing and hope you scare others, or call other's bluff. but in relationships, you opponents are yourself and fate, you are not playing against anyone...what's the point in bluffing yourself or fate?
so you either stay, and wait for the cards to be unveiled completely and find out whether you are a winner or a loser, whether your gamble has paid off, whether it was all worth it after all or not.....or you can fold, you wait for the next round, and wait for your next pair of cards to continue all over again...eventually, you will run out of chips if you keep folding...and at some stage, the game will have to go till the wire for you....
and so, that is all i have thought of during a walk on one warm night, while stressed.
maan...that was one productive walk...is this worth publishing in a magazine or relationship studies journal or somethin? hahahahaha.....
favourite word of the moment: between.
wakakakakakaka....
Anyway...a few days ago, while walking, stressed, i thought of this theory for relationship, an anology for it... If you read on, you might even learn how to play poker (well, the basics at least) ~!
Firstly, in short, a poker game starts off with each player being dealt a pair of cards. if played till the end, each player uses his/her pair of cards combined with 5 other 'communal' cards, ie cards that are shared with other players too (making a pool of 7 cards) and determine the highest ordered combination of 5 cards (flush, full house, etc) they each have. players compare their combination, and player with best combination wins the round.
When the pair of card is being dealt, each player will assess the possibilities or strengths of the pair. if they think the pair is worth going on, or they just feel like it, the player will place a bet to join the game. else, he will 'fold' (meaning: cabut lari...pass the round).
Once who's in and who's out is confirmed, the dealer will unveil the first 3 communal cards. so now, each player combines their unique pair with the 3 cards to see how things go. is there hope for a good combination at the end? is it worth going on? indeed, with 3 new cards, the picture is clearer - these 3 cards now draw a dottted line separating hope and chance, dream and reality ... what might have been and what would be...
So, if the situation looks good, the player will continue, placing bets if necessary, taking risks. if situation is shit, hopes that came with the initial pare shattered with the 3 communal cards unveiled, the player will fold and not waste more resources chasing a lost cause.
the 4th communal card is then unveiled. players assess their position again. how are the chances? do i have 'something'? indeed, now with 6 cards in the picture, it should be pretty clear what the situation would be after 7 cards. again the process of deliberation - whether to take the gamble on the 7th card, whether to carry on, whether this bluff is worth it, whether this dream is now too costly....
again, a player may continue or fold. once the bettings are done, the 5th and final communal card is shown. now the picture is almost perfectly clear. almost, because you can only now know your best combination. win or lose, it still depends what your oppenents have. that, you can only guess. you still dont know, you will never know unless you go on with the final bettings, gambling what you have, taking more risks, to join the group of last persons standing.
now, at this stage, something interesting occurs to the mind. the player have already gone so far in the game. a lot have already been risked. folding means those resources put in is gone. the more you are in, the harder it is to get out. many would just go on because of this, some would still have the discipline to think losing X doesnt mean i have to lose more by going on...
then after those staying on have finished betting, all cards are unveiled. the winner is determined.
relationships are like poker games. you get into one with limited knowledge, there is only so much one can know about another without being in a relationship. you can hope, you can guess, you can extrapolate....you get into one....you risk time, effort, you feelings...you get into a poker game by just seeing 2 of 7 cards...
the more you get into a relationship, the more you know, the more is unveiled. your mind constantly reassess your position subconciously. is it as worth it as it initially looked? should more of everything be put into the relationship? indeed, the more u know, the more u know where 'your cards' are going...the more you know whether you should continue betting or fold...
but wait, knowing 'your cards' is just part of the game...what the other players have will determine whether u win or not. indeed, there is a huge part in relationship that's just a big black box. and so while you can get out of a game with knowledge of what you have, you can stay in with 2 ways - betting on what you have, or betting on what others have.
isn't that the case with relationships? you can leave because you are not happy. but you can either stay because you are happy or because you are not unhappy enough, you bet on 'the other player' - fate.
of course, in poker you can bluff. you can go on with nothing and hope you scare others, or call other's bluff. but in relationships, you opponents are yourself and fate, you are not playing against anyone...what's the point in bluffing yourself or fate?
so you either stay, and wait for the cards to be unveiled completely and find out whether you are a winner or a loser, whether your gamble has paid off, whether it was all worth it after all or not.....or you can fold, you wait for the next round, and wait for your next pair of cards to continue all over again...eventually, you will run out of chips if you keep folding...and at some stage, the game will have to go till the wire for you....
and so, that is all i have thought of during a walk on one warm night, while stressed.
maan...that was one productive walk...is this worth publishing in a magazine or relationship studies journal or somethin? hahahahaha.....
favourite word of the moment: between.
wakakakakakaka....
Monday, August 27, 2007
It Feels So Good Inside....
its monday morning...i had a good night's sleep...but adrenaline is still pumping like no one's business...i feel super happy....yesterday has not yet sunk in...its surreal....
yesterday was malaysia fest 2007 - a rainbow of cultures!
rewind a year back...when we all ended our duties as mfest 2006 committee...i chosed to continue on in the committee, alongside with jx, as the secretary...we both aimed at delivering a better mfest in 2007, and also providing experience to the new committee...
i realised some was dissapointed i didnt go for other posts, but what i did was necessary...no one really knew what was in for me in my 4th year here...i have way too much distractions in my head...but i still wanted to help...and so i went for the secretary post...
that was probably the best and worst decision in my life...haha...
in one hand...i hated secretarial work...nuff said bout that...
but in another hand....that was the only post that was ideal to suit my situation...well, maybe treasurer...but...nah...
so that was the gamble taken...after risking it all for one super mfest in 2006, i placed all my chips on this one day in the month of august, in 2007....it was all in....
the journey was long...it sounds cliche, but its very much like a roller coaster ride...at times situation was calm and controlled...at times blood was at boiling point...at times stress was unbearable...at times it was enjoyable...
sometimes, i did feel a bit useless...being 'just' a secretary...everyone had important stuff on their hands...my official job was just secretarial stuff...which i hated...
but when i asked myself why was i there...i knew it wasnt really to do secretarial work...i wanted to help...provide experience in the team...help jx...and so i tried doing all that...pitched in here and there wherever i could, while frustratingly resisted being too tied up to anything....
i dont know if i've done enough...or wether i made any real difference...i always feel i personally am capable of more...but given the restrictions that applied...that was pretty much it...
MFEST DAY ARRIVED!
i arrived around 8am+...straight to action with the VIP reception preparations...and then with the audio requirements for the whole show that day...this and that...maan...it was few hours of stress i tell ya...
the weather was super....a bit too hot, but still was super....while there were lil bit stuff here and there yet to be settled...i had a feeling it was going to be great...
things got off to a nervy start....with some glitches here and there....but moods were good after a funny speech by jx (hahahaha...and its not our 19th year, its our 17th actually) ...and then when the chinese fan dance started...whoah...we really were in business....
salute to the entertainment department for pulling off the best performances in mfest ever...i had the honour of working closely with this department and to all who saw the end product, lets just say, that was product of months of hard work, blood, sweat and tears...everyone who performed were volunteers, they all did it for many reasons...but i guess all in all its because everyone loved malaysia...
special shout out to my macquarie peepz...you guys again showed that you are class...well done...thank you... =)
marketing ppl did so good this year...it really has been a revolution...website aside, everything was great...it really has raised the bar higher, which have already been raised last year =P
the mfest committee was full of people with great enthusiasm and courage...some really amazed me...and i'm sure if you knew these people and how they worked..you would be amazed as well...to JX, i totally respect this guy who was brave enough to take up the hot seat, and has sacrificed a lot for MFest...it doesnt matter that you forgot it was our 17th edition =P
something like mfest...it requires heart to make it work...you cant just do it half heartedly...people who understand the soul of this festival knows why its such a big deal, why all of us are so emotional about it...people who dont bother, its not too difficult to see why they wont understand the emotions surrounding this event...
i'm not saying the whole thing is perfect, coz there will be a lot of issues to be tabled during the post mortem...but in general...it was great...and mfest 2007 definitely is the best in my whole 4 years of involvement....
so, to Ming Yow, Boon, Jenny, Zek, Faisal, Jun Hui, JX, and to the directors, volunteers, performers...the seniors who laid the good foundation we had...to all the unsung heroes...hats off to all of you...
i gambled it all on this one day...and im happy i did...
haaahhhhhhhhhhh (relief)
p/s- project 914 was successfull! hahaha...~*bila mama pakai celana (maaa maaa pakai celanaaa)*~
yesterday was malaysia fest 2007 - a rainbow of cultures!
rewind a year back...when we all ended our duties as mfest 2006 committee...i chosed to continue on in the committee, alongside with jx, as the secretary...we both aimed at delivering a better mfest in 2007, and also providing experience to the new committee...
i realised some was dissapointed i didnt go for other posts, but what i did was necessary...no one really knew what was in for me in my 4th year here...i have way too much distractions in my head...but i still wanted to help...and so i went for the secretary post...
that was probably the best and worst decision in my life...haha...
in one hand...i hated secretarial work...nuff said bout that...
but in another hand....that was the only post that was ideal to suit my situation...well, maybe treasurer...but...nah...
so that was the gamble taken...after risking it all for one super mfest in 2006, i placed all my chips on this one day in the month of august, in 2007....it was all in....
the journey was long...it sounds cliche, but its very much like a roller coaster ride...at times situation was calm and controlled...at times blood was at boiling point...at times stress was unbearable...at times it was enjoyable...
sometimes, i did feel a bit useless...being 'just' a secretary...everyone had important stuff on their hands...my official job was just secretarial stuff...which i hated...
but when i asked myself why was i there...i knew it wasnt really to do secretarial work...i wanted to help...provide experience in the team...help jx...and so i tried doing all that...pitched in here and there wherever i could, while frustratingly resisted being too tied up to anything....
i dont know if i've done enough...or wether i made any real difference...i always feel i personally am capable of more...but given the restrictions that applied...that was pretty much it...
MFEST DAY ARRIVED!
i arrived around 8am+...straight to action with the VIP reception preparations...and then with the audio requirements for the whole show that day...this and that...maan...it was few hours of stress i tell ya...
the weather was super....a bit too hot, but still was super....while there were lil bit stuff here and there yet to be settled...i had a feeling it was going to be great...
things got off to a nervy start....with some glitches here and there....but moods were good after a funny speech by jx (hahahaha...and its not our 19th year, its our 17th actually) ...and then when the chinese fan dance started...whoah...we really were in business....
salute to the entertainment department for pulling off the best performances in mfest ever...i had the honour of working closely with this department and to all who saw the end product, lets just say, that was product of months of hard work, blood, sweat and tears...everyone who performed were volunteers, they all did it for many reasons...but i guess all in all its because everyone loved malaysia...
special shout out to my macquarie peepz...you guys again showed that you are class...well done...thank you... =)
marketing ppl did so good this year...it really has been a revolution...website aside, everything was great...it really has raised the bar higher, which have already been raised last year =P
the mfest committee was full of people with great enthusiasm and courage...some really amazed me...and i'm sure if you knew these people and how they worked..you would be amazed as well...to JX, i totally respect this guy who was brave enough to take up the hot seat, and has sacrificed a lot for MFest...it doesnt matter that you forgot it was our 17th edition =P
something like mfest...it requires heart to make it work...you cant just do it half heartedly...people who understand the soul of this festival knows why its such a big deal, why all of us are so emotional about it...people who dont bother, its not too difficult to see why they wont understand the emotions surrounding this event...
i'm not saying the whole thing is perfect, coz there will be a lot of issues to be tabled during the post mortem...but in general...it was great...and mfest 2007 definitely is the best in my whole 4 years of involvement....
so, to Ming Yow, Boon, Jenny, Zek, Faisal, Jun Hui, JX, and to the directors, volunteers, performers...the seniors who laid the good foundation we had...to all the unsung heroes...hats off to all of you...
i gambled it all on this one day...and im happy i did...
haaahhhhhhhhhhh (relief)
p/s- project 914 was successfull! hahaha...~*bila mama pakai celana (maaa maaa pakai celanaaa)*~
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
i miss...
i miss...
going home to ppl i call friends...or family...or both...home is just where i sleep on weekdays rite now...no, thats not home...thats just a house...
home is...jb...ipoh...cork...home is, all over sydney...randwick...newtown...muv...kingsford...home is where all those that matters are at...where i am happy to say "i'm home"...
home is everywhere except where house is rite now...
i pack my bags with as many things as possible, but my bag can only take me away from house for so long...and its friggin stupid that i have no choice but to go back to my house...
i feel that because house is not home, i am slowly being disconnected from home...from the people at home...the ones that really matters...i hate feeling disconnected...or...loosely connected...especially from people that i wish i was more closer with...
some people go home, their friends are just next room...next door...in the same building...now i understand why i was so happy when that someone was here...coz during that time...my house IS my home...
people who feel that going back to your houses is going back to home...be thankful...you don't know how much better off you are than people like me...
going home to ppl i call friends...or family...or both...home is just where i sleep on weekdays rite now...no, thats not home...thats just a house...
home is...jb...ipoh...cork...home is, all over sydney...randwick...newtown...muv...kingsford...home is where all those that matters are at...where i am happy to say "i'm home"...
home is everywhere except where house is rite now...
i pack my bags with as many things as possible, but my bag can only take me away from house for so long...and its friggin stupid that i have no choice but to go back to my house...
i feel that because house is not home, i am slowly being disconnected from home...from the people at home...the ones that really matters...i hate feeling disconnected...or...loosely connected...especially from people that i wish i was more closer with...
some people go home, their friends are just next room...next door...in the same building...now i understand why i was so happy when that someone was here...coz during that time...my house IS my home...
people who feel that going back to your houses is going back to home...be thankful...you don't know how much better off you are than people like me...
Monday, August 06, 2007
All Time Greats!
This is just a random post...about a lil something that i did a few days ago...
I have 952 songs in my whole music library...and they are somewhat random in terms of language and genre...there isn't much pattern that can be deduced by analysing them except that:
1- Sorted by artist, i have almost all Jay Chou songs, and quite good collection of Siti Nurhaliza songs too.
2- Sorted by date added, each time i add songs, the songs will have a particular theme. For example, one night i thought of the movie top gun, hence i downloaded some songs, and they all are from top gun. another night i am in the techno mood, and all songs downloaded are hence techno.
Anyway, a long long time ago, i decided to create playlists, and there was this playlist i created called 'All Time Greats', where i planned to put in only the greatests songs by my standards.
For a long long time that list was empty as i was lazy to browse my playlist one by one to evaluate their 'All Time Great'-worthiness.
one day last week, i stood up and said to myself, i'm gonna do it. not that i literally stood up or said anything, but, something like that lah...so i sorted my library via artist, and started listening one by one...evaluating, and then putting them in the list if they are worth it.
it was a long and arduous night...but finally i managed to settle the list once and for all...then i checked the list...419 songs...out of 952...that's FRIGGIN ALMOST HALF of the whole library! might as well just play my whole library rite? i would average about 1 click of the 'next' button per song i play....that's WAYYYYY easier than setting up that list...and plus...kononnye the list would be 'exclusive'...well, if half of my library made it into the list...exclusive lahhh sangat =P
but hey, since i set up the list, and play them regularly, i find that everytime i play em i will feel happy...coz its back to back songs that i like of all times...
for example, just now was 'Ya Zi' by Tarcy Su (this is a hit song during primary school years), then 'End of the road' by Boys 2 Men, then Tui Hou by Jay Chou, then Broken by Seether, then Feng by Jay Chou, then Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlotte, then Wonderwall by Oasis, and now its Ghetto Superstar by Mya & Wyclef Jean....not bad for a random play aight?well, definitely very good for me =)
i'm happy...for the moment at least =)
I have 952 songs in my whole music library...and they are somewhat random in terms of language and genre...there isn't much pattern that can be deduced by analysing them except that:
1- Sorted by artist, i have almost all Jay Chou songs, and quite good collection of Siti Nurhaliza songs too.
2- Sorted by date added, each time i add songs, the songs will have a particular theme. For example, one night i thought of the movie top gun, hence i downloaded some songs, and they all are from top gun. another night i am in the techno mood, and all songs downloaded are hence techno.
Anyway, a long long time ago, i decided to create playlists, and there was this playlist i created called 'All Time Greats', where i planned to put in only the greatests songs by my standards.
For a long long time that list was empty as i was lazy to browse my playlist one by one to evaluate their 'All Time Great'-worthiness.
one day last week, i stood up and said to myself, i'm gonna do it. not that i literally stood up or said anything, but, something like that lah...so i sorted my library via artist, and started listening one by one...evaluating, and then putting them in the list if they are worth it.
it was a long and arduous night...but finally i managed to settle the list once and for all...then i checked the list...419 songs...out of 952...that's FRIGGIN ALMOST HALF of the whole library! might as well just play my whole library rite? i would average about 1 click of the 'next' button per song i play....that's WAYYYYY easier than setting up that list...and plus...kononnye the list would be 'exclusive'...well, if half of my library made it into the list...exclusive lahhh sangat =P
but hey, since i set up the list, and play them regularly, i find that everytime i play em i will feel happy...coz its back to back songs that i like of all times...
for example, just now was 'Ya Zi' by Tarcy Su (this is a hit song during primary school years), then 'End of the road' by Boys 2 Men, then Tui Hou by Jay Chou, then Broken by Seether, then Feng by Jay Chou, then Dance Floor Anthem by Good Charlotte, then Wonderwall by Oasis, and now its Ghetto Superstar by Mya & Wyclef Jean....not bad for a random play aight?well, definitely very good for me =)
i'm happy...for the moment at least =)
Thursday, August 02, 2007
the wacky world of rewind!!!!!
woww....i have been away for some time now...well...i blame the absence on my laziness (and of coz, my busy schedule :p )
so...what's been happening? here's a re-cap of things that happened within the past couple of months....REWIND!*buzzizzziizzzzizzzzz*(kononnye bunyi rewind)
1- a special visit from a special someone....whoaahh...that was way way way way back, about 3 weeks before exams! i remember those couple of weeks...super happy indeed...a very special couple of weeks....
2- study + exams ... sungguh kan-cheong ... cemas ... thrilling ... tapi in the end, it was all good ... alhamdulillah....
3- holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!
4- NCG (national conference and games) 2007!! wuuhuu....i had a great time during NCG...with my kakis - the ultimate NSW cheering squad...hahahaha....(disclaimer: this has no significant correlation with the fact that it was in Melbourne...i wud have been equally happy being around the same company at another place)...
maaaaaan...i just cant explain how it feels to hear NSW being announced as overall champions....i lost my voice cheering...and it was all worth it!
anyway, masca nationals had our agm...and i think it went well...i have to say the masca national team this year had been great...it's a good combo within the nationals and also among all states...
5- back from NCG...holidays still on...sydney was juz plain quiet...i saw devan a few times before he left for malaysia for good...will miss him...one of my best friend in sydney from the beginning...
6- MFest in full swing....it has been weekly meetings since a few weeks ago now...with deadlines after deadlines, tasks after tasks...and i find that i just hate secretarial work....
7- UNI STARTS!!!!!!!!!!! and guess what...it's my FINAL SEMESTER! woohoo! i just cant wait to say good bye to uni...but not yet, not just yet...for now, all i wish for is to be here to complete this journey and reach the promised land...
Alrite...thats a very pemalas effort on recapping the events...but an effort nonetheless =P
anyway....there's this thingy that i am into for the past one half month....its called Online Football Manager! check it out at www.onlinefootballmanager.co.uk
if u are familiar with any football managerial game such as FM or CM, this is approximately like em, only much simpler (yet still fun), and u play in leagues against teams that are managed by real time players from various places on earth!
everyday at approx 12midnite GMT, a game would be simulated and the outcome pretty much is determined via the process of simulation, given the team settings and tactics from both teams, including some extra variables like luck.
aaaaaanyway....that's that...
now is a very stressful time indeed for me...i can sense the dark force pressing from left right up and down...we might not realise it, but nowadays, keeping sane is already a very difficult task...and for me, it hasn't been harder....
it's too complex for me to explain, but i can say this, the stuff im doing for mfest rite now has kept me going and happy...yes, i am happy doing it all...and they are not the source of my stress...i like the job, i like the company...and i look forward to every weekend...
of coz, i have to thank cik gg for being very thoughtful during these trying times...very supportive and understanding...i have had less time to be online chatting or on d fon, but she is mostly cool...hehe...cool lah cik gg ni! keep cool k? jgn tiba2 emo or mood swing k? hahahaha =)
that's all for now...bye~
so...what's been happening? here's a re-cap of things that happened within the past couple of months....REWIND!*buzzizzziizzzzizzzzz*(kononnye bunyi rewind)
1- a special visit from a special someone....whoaahh...that was way way way way back, about 3 weeks before exams! i remember those couple of weeks...super happy indeed...a very special couple of weeks....
2- study + exams ... sungguh kan-cheong ... cemas ... thrilling ... tapi in the end, it was all good ... alhamdulillah....
3- holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!
4- NCG (national conference and games) 2007!! wuuhuu....i had a great time during NCG...with my kakis - the ultimate NSW cheering squad...hahahaha....(disclaimer: this has no significant correlation with the fact that it was in Melbourne...i wud have been equally happy being around the same company at another place)...
maaaaaan...i just cant explain how it feels to hear NSW being announced as overall champions....i lost my voice cheering...and it was all worth it!
anyway, masca nationals had our agm...and i think it went well...i have to say the masca national team this year had been great...it's a good combo within the nationals and also among all states...
5- back from NCG...holidays still on...sydney was juz plain quiet...i saw devan a few times before he left for malaysia for good...will miss him...one of my best friend in sydney from the beginning...
6- MFest in full swing....it has been weekly meetings since a few weeks ago now...with deadlines after deadlines, tasks after tasks...and i find that i just hate secretarial work....
7- UNI STARTS!!!!!!!!!!! and guess what...it's my FINAL SEMESTER! woohoo! i just cant wait to say good bye to uni...but not yet, not just yet...for now, all i wish for is to be here to complete this journey and reach the promised land...
Alrite...thats a very pemalas effort on recapping the events...but an effort nonetheless =P
anyway....there's this thingy that i am into for the past one half month....its called Online Football Manager! check it out at www.onlinefootballmanager.co.uk
if u are familiar with any football managerial game such as FM or CM, this is approximately like em, only much simpler (yet still fun), and u play in leagues against teams that are managed by real time players from various places on earth!
everyday at approx 12midnite GMT, a game would be simulated and the outcome pretty much is determined via the process of simulation, given the team settings and tactics from both teams, including some extra variables like luck.
aaaaaanyway....that's that...
now is a very stressful time indeed for me...i can sense the dark force pressing from left right up and down...we might not realise it, but nowadays, keeping sane is already a very difficult task...and for me, it hasn't been harder....
it's too complex for me to explain, but i can say this, the stuff im doing for mfest rite now has kept me going and happy...yes, i am happy doing it all...and they are not the source of my stress...i like the job, i like the company...and i look forward to every weekend...
of coz, i have to thank cik gg for being very thoughtful during these trying times...very supportive and understanding...i have had less time to be online chatting or on d fon, but she is mostly cool...hehe...cool lah cik gg ni! keep cool k? jgn tiba2 emo or mood swing k? hahahaha =)
that's all for now...bye~
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