i have been having too many dreams lately

this morning i woke up...i straight away recall that i was in a dream...and its just so real that because of the dream, im all in a down/confused mode...

i couldnt remember exactly how the dream went, but as i remembered it, me n my whole family except my dad was at malacca, we wanted to juz take a plane back to JB (WTH???)...and at first take off, i took out my mobile fon to turn it off, and suddenly, there was some electrical failure in the plane...they blamed my phone...but HEY, i was juz turning it off! we had to abort take off...and we all went back inside the airport....

thats not the whole story...

in the plane...i was sitting next to a friend of mine...a good friend of mine...i didnt recall her in the previous scenes before we boarded the plane...but she was just there when i was in my seat...i haven't talked to her for awhile now...last we met, or 'almost' met, i was angry at her...well, in the dream...between me and her was just...(now that i think about it) awkward...

yup, its a weird and stupid dream (take a plane from malacca to JB?) - but dreams are always like that anyway...they rarely make sense...having said that, dreams can be really powerful... they can affect you like its real...the thing between me and that friend of mine...gosh...im so confused now...

i think i also had a couple of dreams before that, one i remembered had my dad in it...but i couldnt remember how the dream went...

dreams... *sigh*

have you woke up from a dream crying? or smiling? or angry or frustrated?

when i was small, i remember i had this nightmare one night...it was the end of the world...flames and chaos everywhere...there was this evil 'thing' flying over the whole area...throwing flames and killing people while laughing...i remember i lost my whole family...i woke up crying...

a few days ago...i dreamt i was killed...

i was in a bus, and sensed that someone was trying to kill me...that someone made a series of efforts to kill me in the bus without being noticed, one of his attempts, he tried to wire up my seat to electrocute me, with a very lame excuse given by the electrician to put some wires on my seat, but i sensed the plot, and moved to another seat...then he asked this mad man with a pair of chopping knife...but i fought him off...

then i shouted, "who is it who has been trying to kill me?show yourself" ... a man stood up, took out a gun...and shot me...i remembered saying after that, "isn't that easier if you want to kill me?"



-i have been having too many dreams lately-


p/s - when am i going to dream that i am a manchester united winger? =P

Goodbyes and Farewells

it's that time of the year again, when everyone sez goodbye to everyone...but this year, its different for me...i'm saying goodbye to some of my very best friends around...and i am starting to feel d emptiness already...

today i farewelled Mel...and its just sad...she is a friend who really cares, she doesn't call only when she needs anything or any favour or have some hidden manipulative agenda...

dont get me wrong , im happy to help anyone anytime if i can...but if the times i hear from you are only when you need favours...chances are: you're probably juz another person i know...

mel...no...she is the kind of friend who calls and reminds me about classes, about uni, who checks on how life is going on for me...a friend who's concerned of how i am doing...a friend in good times, and bad ones...

how many of such friends exists in your life? i certainly haven't found many...

i am sad that she has to leave, but at the same time, i am happy she is already graduating and entering the next phase of life (sigh, i was supposed to be leaving this shit too) ... to mel: all the best in whatever journey you embark on next - may our paths cross again =)

hmm...

azan is also leaving...tomorrow...now that's another friend i can't imagine not having around...he is definitely a great friend and while he will be back in sydney working...life's just gonna be different...

in the near future...more of the people i cherish having around are going to leave...it's not the happiest of times for me...i guess i just have to move on...not all's lost...i still have some good friends in sydney...and i intend to be a great friend to them, and hopefully to others as well...

think about it again...

its really deja vu...i have a bunch of 'yi sheng yi si' (translated: live together, die together) friends back in malaysia...and we had to say farewell to each other when we all chosed different paths in lives after school...things did change...

i would look back and miss those times...but when i look at the present, change have brought great things, more friends...and now im at that threshold again...i guess its only fair to be excited at the prospects...